MIRNALINI
25 Nov
Fourteen
Cedarian
2O'08
3S'09
TLDDS.
Aanandha Kootani
Itchashakthi
OAL BOARD.
First Aid OAC '09
Campfire COALs '09
my boots will ROCK YOUR SOCKS :D
i love my love too.
and special makes my heart smile(:
Thursday, December 31, 2009
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4:35 PM
OH MY WHAT AN AWESOME WAY TO END THE YEAR (: (: (: today was just nice and warm and how it should be. seeing friends that ive not seen in weeks. meeting love early in the morning and smiling smiling smiling the whole dayy. running all over the school with archana, sitting in the middle of the courtyard with mummy in the hot hot hot sun and taking pictures for everyone just cos we happened to be there. getting bullied in front of juniors! ohmygod HAHAHA no matter what, no matter how old we are, THEY come back and we become sec1 again. shit, i actually miss getting bullied. sec4 next year, last few hours of sec3, somehow i really really dont want this year to end cos then next year will just zoom past like how this year did and we'll be leaving cedar. so i'll treasure each moment cos its so precious. every second spent with cedarians in school is precious. and having said all that, i felt like a sec1 today and it felt really really good! :D 2009 was a pretty screwed up year for my studies but when i look back now, i remember so many happy memories and laughter and kukuness and being really really happy. from yaar antha star to fiesta to OAC to OBS to COALs. then all the smallest things like buddaye dates and that day after sinda cip :D and deepavali visit when buddayes met buddaye's parents. there were always bad stuff, yea. but i know i gained alot and grown so much. im not leaving this year with any regrets. really, nothing at all. and it was definitely better than last year. i realised that everytime i had any expectations, it never turned out the way i thought it would. with her, everything is just screwed now, i dont remember the last time i spoke to her and i dont know the next time we'll speak. you made empty promises. told me you'll always be here, and made me believe and then just left. it was perfect and then it just crumbled. you just left me here and went on your own way cos im sure i dont matter anymore. i was really happy today. then i got reminded of you and it feels like shit you know. it feels like i was living a dream. and then i woke up and nothing was real. all fake. i dont hate you. i still love you. with all my heart and soul. and when you decide to come back i will willingly take you back even though you treated me like a toy. bored of playing, put away. nothing to do, mirna where are you i want to have lunch. i dropped everything and came to you whenever you wanted me. and i know i will still do that now. i miss you doesnt quite say it. it feels like there's a freaking hole in me. then there's another her. dont know what happened this year cos she's suddenly so nice. makes me happy and sort of temporarily heals that hole. awesome day with her that day, and awesome day today. feels nice. and warm. (: cmon 2010. im game. |
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