MIRNALINI
25 Nov
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Cedarian
2O'08
3S'09
TLDDS.
Aanandha Kootani
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Campfire COALs '09
my boots will ROCK YOUR SOCKS :D
i love my love too.
and special makes my heart smile(:
Saturday, August 23, 2008
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11:11 AM
you know, sometimes, when you see happy things going on in other's lives. and then you feel happy for them cos you love them and you want them to be happy even thoh you're not part of their lives. but you feel happy that at least there are good things going on in their lives. but secretly inside, you wish such things could happen in your life. and then. you start comparing your life to that person's. you're not that person's friend nor family. you talk to that person. but you're not part of that person's life. you dun know so many things that go on in that person's life. you wish you did. i've been thinking alot recently. and i realised i've been prefering to be alone. the week was good. tuesday sucked. basically sucked sucked sucked. i'm sorry to all those who were wondering what was wrong with me. i dunno. sorry. you know, its not easy being mirna. everyone expects you to be happy and cheerful, jumping all over the place all the time, being noisy. the minute i go quiet, everyone starts asking me whats wrong. did something go wrong. i'm not allowed to sit down and just be quiet. reflect. sort through the million thoughts running through my head. sometimes i just feel like shouting that nothing is the problem. i just want some peace. leave me alone. but then again. its not anybody's fault. i was the one who made myself like to be the cheerful noisy mirna. and well, i usually am like this. until something reminds me of all the different things that have been going on and then i become emo and quiet. maybe thats why i like to sleep or be alone or read so much now. when i sleep, i forget abt everything until i get some horrible dream and i wake up shaking. i've been getting those quite alot now. but yesterday night was nice. maybe cos of jaya's nice goodnight story. it made me feel warm and nice. and loved. just like how things used to be. but, things are fine now. iloveyou balleh(: and talking to sangee online was nice too. thanks nice cheerful sangee! (: being alone is nice too. cos there's no one there with you. and its just you and your thoughts. and no one to tell you what to do. you decide. you are in control. maybe someday i'll run away somewhere and become a recluse or something. wednesday was productive. 3 chapters history covered. bagus bagus. i just have to keep this up and i'll be well on my way to all those a1s. HAHA yessss dini! make special proud! :D you make your ___________ proud! :D thursday was nice too. buddaye! and then charmaine joined us. it was so niceeee! and omg ya. senior buddaye! jinxjinxjinx! ahaha. its so nicee when you keep on bumping into someone you miss 6 times in a row. 26th. krishnan temple. shit die. i realised that alot of other ppl also dancing. the small kids, then us, then aditi pavithra they all i think, then meera akka (:D) the senior akkas all. yupp. i need to improve. navarathiri's gonna be worse. grahh. i dun want september to come. but i dun want to stay in august either. august really sucked. somebody hurry up and invent the time machine PLEASEEEEEEEEE! then i can go back to 2007 and earlier this yr and stay there. grahhhhgrrrrrrah. tanya turned around one day in class and asked me to give her a word so she can write a poem. so i automatically said "SPECIAL!" and omg it was so niceee a poem! super nice k. tanya can write nice nice poems. (: alright. i have alot of things to do. and i'm having super bad cramps when its not even that time of the month yet, i feel like vomiting, and i have migraine(sp?) argh. and the twins are coming to kolam ayer to watch nannareh! ohgosh. k, bye. |
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